Tuesday, November 30, 2010

Getting back on track

The day: Tomorrow
The time: 5:30am
The place: 1st baptist church

They have started a ladies workout group there and they call it - BOOT CAMP! Let me just say...I have already done a month of this before...yes, yes, I know, you are now lost lol...while I was not blogging I was still working out and I picked up a new workout partner who is also my neighbor and friend..her name is Rachel. So anyway, we will be starting boot camp again tomorrow and I can't wait...while I am not losing any weight I feel better when I work out...when I get my money in again I am going to go and have some tests run at the doctors office..they think I may have a hormonal imbalance...which can stop you from losing weight and also make you gain weight...fun stuff...I will write again tomorrow and let you know how that goes tho...

KcNorton

Saturday, November 27, 2010

No weight lost...or gained

I haven't lost any weight here lately...nor have I gained any weight here lately...Mom is doing great and so is my Dad...they quit eating meat about 6 months ago and have since lost about 70lbs. a piece...Dad is no longer on his diabetes meds and both report feeling better then they have in years! They tell me constantly how much better I would feel if I would just lose the weight...Yes, I know this. For one I used to be thin and healthy...For two, it's not like I am keeping the weight on by choice. I exercise and nothing is happening. I watch what I eat and nothing happens...I have a couple more tests that need to be run by the doctor, but I have been reading up on what the tests are for...hopefully a solution will come soon.

KcNorton

Saturday, August 28, 2010

back to the original topics...

Ok, so tonight we are back to the original reason I created this blog...weight loss...and starting tomorrow I will be getting back to mine...I kinda...ok well not kinda...I did quit doing everything for over a month now.

But I am now ready to start again and I am going to start again...besides my mom is kicking my rear in the weight loss department now. mom and dad switched to a vegetarian diet for several reasons - they eat fish a couple times a week now but the rest of the time is veggies...no other meat. mom is down to 229 and dad is down to 187 i think it was...they are looking awesome! also they are starting to reverse some of the health issues they were having...like diabetes...heart disease...blood pressure problems...anyway...very proud of them.

I am starting to think I will not reach my goal and weigh less then 200 by Christmas this year...I am really gonna have to bust my hump to get that goal achieved now...man have I been slacking or what...

KcNorton

Absolutely Ticked

Sorry it has been awhile since I have blogged, been very scattered here lately. However, tonight, something happened that I just have to get off of my chest.

My sons great - grandmother died. Did the family call to tell him this? Of course not, he gets to find out from that his sister told his little brother at school today. So he calls his aunt - one of the two people on that side of the family that has ever been decent to him and she tells him that yes, she passed away, but that the family doesn't feel he should attend the funeral. WTF?!?!

Then it goes from her trying to justify why they don't want him at the funeral to how I am a horrible mother and he has had a rotten childhood and who was he with when all this bad stuff happened to him...well...when he only has me - who else would he be with? I supposedly brain washed him against that side of his family - even though I have always told him that no matter what his dad loved him.

Anyway, after listening to this crap for about an hour or so I had enough and told my son that if he ever had anything to do with that side of his family again I wouldn't have anything to do with him. The aunt asked if I would allow her to still have a relationship with my son and I told her no. I have stood here for years and watched these people tear my son apart at the seams and rip apart from the inside out and I will NOT do it anymore. They can blame me if that is what they have to do to be able to live with themselves. I know the truth, God knows the truth, my son knows the truth, and deep down they know the truth as well. And in the end - they will get back what they put out into this world 10 fold.

I hope by judgement day they are able to come up with a suitable excuse as to why they have all done everything they have done. And in the meantime, I hope this all haunts every minute of the rest of their lives and follows them into their deaths.

Saturday, July 24, 2010

Um...

ok...so lots of drama around my house here lately...I know I was posting like everyday...and I haven't been doing that here lately, but honestly...I found I really don't have much to say everyday. Ok, well, yeah I do, but not sure I should put it here where certain people could "stumble" onto it and get an eyefull!

I am a blunt, outspoken person to alot of people...very rarely do I bite my tongue. My mother has always said that I was born without a pause button between my brain and my mouth...and yes...unfortunately...I have managed to pass this on to my kids. Some people think I am being hurtful, some people think I am being mean, and some people think that I am just full of crap. I can't help it...I try...and eventually it all just comes spilling out anyway...and usually at the most inopprotune times.

My ex-husbands ex-girlfriend takes everything to heart...God love her. She seems to be a good woman. I have nothing against her and I never have had anything against her. However, if I say something to my ex-husband about how he is treating his kids - she gets upset and thinks I am attacking her.

There is so much going on in my personal life...I don't know what to do or what to think. I have a very hard time doing nothing...I am very impulsive...especially with my words...I don't always think things through and I know that I should...But I just can't get a grip on my damn tongue!

Ok..well I am going to cut this off here cause it's not making much sense to me either....

KcNorton

Monday, July 19, 2010

Ingrown toenail...

Ok..so I now have an ingrown toenail...and it's not the entire nail...just one corner...way down in the corner of the toe...and it hurts...really bad. I have a Doctor's appointment in the morning and I can't sleep tonight. I have been really tired here lately. Well, I think I am gonna go play on facebook for awhile.

KcNorton

Sunday, July 18, 2010

Poor Binkers

My poor little Binkers isn't looking so good...everyone is saying he is depressed...I will keep trying as long as he will though. I hope he gets out of his funk soon...this is scary.

As for other news...hhmmm...weight loss is at a stand still yet again. Drill sergent and I were supposed to start exercising again today and a storm hit...what fun!

My ex-husband has yet again found a way to totally tick me off...he is very good at that...the younger two kids will be home next week...so much for him taking them for his month during the summer! I guess I am lucky he could even spare a week. He didn't take them at the 1st of the month because he couldn't "afford" to have them, but yet he took his other son from his soon to be ex-wife. The day he gets them I have to bring them to him because he has no gas in his truck and no money to put gas in his truck, yet the day before he takes himself, his ex-girlfriend, his other son, and her kids to a water park for the day and doesn't bother inviting our two kids to go along and the day after i drop them off he takes them out to the beach for the day...wow...what a way to prove you have no gas and no money for gas. What a way to show our kids how much you really care as well...he absolutely refuses to take our kids if he can't take the other boy as well...however he will take the other boy and not even bother with our two kids...

Inside of my household...aggrevation. When you ask a question that has a yes or no response to it...how hard is it for the person answering to simply say...yes...or...no. Appearantly...extremely hard as my husband can't seem to accomplish this task. I just don't understand why it is so hard to give a direct response to a direct question. There are other things I don't understand as well, but I don't think I am ready to voice them as of yet.

Well, I think I am about to head off to bed - it's pretty late.

KcNorton

Friday, July 16, 2010

Slacker me...

Tomorrow drill sergent and I are going to start our workouts again...yes, I have been a total slacker here lately. I am going to start posting some recipes I think...and maybe some pics of our dinners...

Well, I think this is just going to be a short blog tonight...I have a really bad headache.

KcNorton

Thursday, July 15, 2010

The results

Tonight went well...we actually made a profit from it! Now...I will say...we only sold 1...yes...count it...O...N...E...jar of preserves! But, I think drill sergent had fun...he sure did dance alot...they held a dog show...and a corvette show...and there was dancing in the streets....literally...a human train...the cha cha slide...it was fun to watch. They even did the hokey pokey!!!

KcNorton

Hard work

Well, the big day that dill sergent and I have been working for the past couple of weeks is finally here. Our town "flea market" is tonight so we will finally see if the hard work has paid off. The amazing thing is - we are selling sweets and the only person in my household that is really interested in sweets is my husband. Drill sergent can't eat sugary stuff without getting sick to his stomach and I just don't really care for sweet stuff all that much. My younger two kids would much rather eat fruit then cakes or candies. I must have done somthing right there.

My ex-husband finally got the younger two boys yesterday and I plan to use this time to get myself back on track and get my house back in order. Get my life in order.

I am once again having problems with fluid build up in my body...I don't know what the deal is here. What I do know is that it really hurts. However, other things that were feeling bad on me are feeling lots better now! Well, I think that's it for now - I'll let you all know how things go tonight!

KcNorton

Tuesday, July 13, 2010

Life

Ok..well I haven't exactly been blogging here lately...i know i know...shame on me! There has been so much going on...it's crazy. The drill sergent and I haven't been working out...or counting calories...which the calorie part really hasn't been an issue for me...I eat meat, but honestly could live without it. I (for some odd reason) have never really cared much for meat. My husband swears I could live off of broccoli...and yes...I am pretty sure he is correct...my absolute favorite veggie ever!

However, I am finding that along this "journey" I am wanting to clean out other areas of my life as well...not just shedding the weight...I feel as though there are things in my life that are trying to keep me where I am...that are holding me back.


For one...we need to get rid of some animals around here...I feel like I am running a zoo! At the moment we currently have 3 dogs, 3 cats, 6 ferrets, 2 hamsters, and a hedgehog. 4 of the ferrets are my ex-husbands that he was supposed to be buying the supplies for and taking care of and hasn't - so they are now in need of a new home (as I can't afford to keep them). 2 of the dogs need a home - 1 dog the owner abandoned in front of my ex-husbands house...tied him up on a 5 foot lead and left him...no food...no water...so i brought him home with me so he could be taken care of until i could find another place for him...and the other one is our big dog who is 1/2 german shephard and 1/2 lab - while we love him dearly - things have not turned out as planned and i would love to find him a home in the country where he can run...the poor baby...i just don't have the yard he needs.

Second off...I would love to clean out my closets (literally)...and now I hear Eminem singing in my head...I'm sorry momma...anyway...

Third...I am sure that by now all of you have seen the TV show hoarders...well...I live with one...my husband. Only...he doesn't only hoard certain things...he hoards EVERYTHING! So I have to wait until he is not home to get rid of stuff...the problem with this...he has been unemployed and living a hermetic lifestyle for almost a year now. He rarely leaves his computer chair other to smoke his cigarettes (and this only because I have forced him to go outside to smoke - I quit over a year ago and my youngest child is asthmatic). He actually freaked out over the price of things..."can you believe that a box of sugar babies costs $1.49!" Yeah...it's been that way for awhile now. Anyway...back to the issue...can't really get rid of things with him around...and it is practically impossible to live your life with someone like this without getting sucked down into their muck right along with them.

Forth...well...honestly...I am not really sure here.

Anyway, I know I haven't exactly talked about the exact topic of weight loss here tonight (err...this morning), but this is what was on my mind. I am sorry if you all have not enjoyed this...hopefully back on track soon.

KcNorton

Wednesday, July 7, 2010

Aggrivated....

My weight keeps bouncing around...I am going from 252 - 256...I hate when this happens...but then again one thing I hadn't considered until just this moment is that I may be getting ready to start my period. I need to up my activity level...I need to make room to set my treadmill up so that I can use it one the days when I can't go out and walk like today. They still have our local stadium closed down for repairs atm so we haven't been able to go there to do our exercise lately...hopefully soon tho.

KcNorton

Sunday, July 4, 2010

Happy 4th of July!

Tonight we went to my parents house and popped some fireworks...we had a blast! My kids brought home a kitten yesterday...not sure if the kitten is going to make it though...she is in really bad shape.

KcNorton

Saturday, July 3, 2010

Trouble...

I woke up this morning to a soaking wet laundry room and bathroom. Our water heater went out...lovely. I went for my walk tonight...having forgotten about the water heater...and now I can't shower the sweat off of myself...this is so freaking gross. I guess I will shower tomorrow at my parents house so that I won't stink! Hopefully things start looking better for us soon...I am hoping to get another job as well.

KcNorton

Friday, July 2, 2010

Good day

Today we went swimming! My favorite pasttime....4 hours! It was great...I had a blast watching the kids and swimming around myself..I think it is really funny that most people stay around the edges of the pool...so I go to swim in the middle where the little kids and others won't be splashing me cause basically...there is no one around me there lol. We are doing some more preserves tonight...hopefully we will finish before long...and let me tell you...I don't want to see anymore pears already...I have discovered that I really don't care for pears at all.

KcNorton

Pears!!!!!!

I will be having nightmares about pear preserves for years to come I am sure of it! We have about 50 more pounds of pears to go...I tasted the pear preserves...only to find out...they are gross! Way too sweet! I feel sick to my stomach now...and that is only from a little taste...how do people eat this stuff?!?! I am seriously not a big fan of sweet stuff. My younger kids tasted them only to tell me that...yeah that's how they are supposed to taste. Well, then I get the bright idea to add some cinnamon into a few jars of the pear preserves...right...kinda like a baked pear...wwwaaayyy too much cinnamon...so tomorrow we are going to have to cut it down...we even tried a couple of pear experiments...NOT GOOD! I really hope this stuff sells good...but I definately can't eat the stuff...not that it's bad...I just can't eat something this sweet!

Thursday, July 1, 2010

254

Yay...I got on the scale this morning and see the magic number of 254 staring back at me!!! This really surprises me as we haven't been able to do any walking at all for the past few days due to the weather and due to the fact that I messed my ankle up somehow. Well, I am patting myself on the back anyhow! The drill sergent and I are trying our hands at making preserves and selling them for a little extra cash...Lord knows we need all the financial help we can get. I'll let you know how it goes...

KcNorton

Monday, June 28, 2010

People suck

Ok..well..the night before last our next door neighbor broke into our jeep and stole some tools...we saw her...we called the police and she then proceeds to scream at us for calling the police on her! WTF?!?! Anyway...we walked a little bit tonight...the weather hasn't been great around here the past few days and my the ankle that i broke several months ago is killing me. I don't have alot to say tonight and I am really tired...

KcNorton

funny

It's funny how as teenagers we can't see the big picture...all we can see is right here and right now. I love my kids more then anything in this world and would give my own life for them. I know that I have disappointed them at times - and I know that I have made them angry at times - and I know that I have downright hurt them at times. It wasn't intentional, but it has happened. I was/am a young mother...I had my oldest son the day after I turned 15...my water actually broke at 10 pm on my birthday. I made the choice to keep and raise my son. He has had to grow up with me still growing up. I don't have the life I want for my kids...I don't have a bad life - just not the life I want for my kids. And honestly, I am not really sure how to get the life I want for my kids. There is so much emotional baggage in my life...and yeah this has alot to do with my weight I am sure. Or at least getting fat was a side effect of this emotional pit from hell. If only I were a stronger woman...but I don't even know where to begin to even start to heal some of these wounds. I have pushed them to the side and put them off for so long now...I wish things could be different...do I blame myself for all that has gone wrong in my sons life...you betcha...

KcNorton

Saturday, June 26, 2010

Um..

Yet again...I am a slacker where my blog is concerned. I was sooo happy to see 256 on the scale today! And then my mother sends me a text proclaiming she is looking at 244 (puts her hands over her face and begins crying). I am very proud of my mother...she looks great and I hope that she continues to lose weight..I honestly do not know that I have ever seen my mother as small as she is now. However, I am very frustrated at how slow this is going for me...And my dad...my dad is weighing in at 207! But they are also doing a fish and vegetarian diet. I am allergic to seafood therefore I can't eat fish...blah! So I do chicken...I have eaten so much chicken here lately I think I am about to start clucking! Anyway...hopefully the numbers on the scale will continue to drop for me and hopefully I will reach my goal of being in the 100's by christmas!

KcNorton

Tuesday, June 22, 2010

sorry

Sorry I haven't blogged for a couple/few days...my drill sergent made me walk almost 5 miles the other day and since then I have kinda been...well...to say the least...suffering the after effects. Anyway, I am having loads of trouble sleeping tonight so I decided to catch up on some stuff...this being part of said stuff...hopefully this will pick up soon and I will actually have something to talk about!

KcNorton

Sunday, June 20, 2010

Happy Dance

I got on the scale this morning and YAY! 257 pounds! Happy Dance - Shake your booty!

Friday, June 18, 2010

woohoo

Walked 2 miles tonight - it was great! We will see just how happy I am about it in the morning tho...that's when I will step on the scale again...

KcNorton

Thursday, June 17, 2010

It finally moved again

I weighed today and finally saw 159! Woohoo...my scale isn't stuck after all - it can go lower! We walked for about 40 mins tonight...

Wednesday, June 16, 2010

Hating the scale

I am sure we have all been through it at some point in our lives - well my time is now! I have been sitting at 260 pounds for 2 solid weeks...I cannot even begin to describe just how irritating this is. I have been pushing myself harder - I have been eating healthier - and still when I step on the scale - I can literally hear this inanimate object giggling like a little school girl at me due to the fact it's going to show me the same number it did before! Guess I need to work harder to beat the scale...I promise you...I will eventually win. Oh..I don't know that I have posted my goals - I know on my ticker it says that I am ultimately aiming for the nice weight of 130 pounds - and I am - ultimately...however...my 1st goal is to reach below 200 pounds by Christmas of 2010! So..that means 60 poounds in 6 months...wish me luck!

KcNorton

Tuesday, June 15, 2010

260 photos





Yes...I know...I am totally HOT!!! No...literally..I had just gotten finished working out lol...so I really am HOT in these pics. Anyway...this is what I look like at 260 pounds!

Movin' my butt!!!!


Ok...so tonight we walked down to the local football stadium again...approx. 1/2 mile away from my house...2 times up the bleachers (well as far UP as I dare to go - u should know by now that = 22 steps lol - if not now ya do)...and guess what...I actually did 4 - yes count them 1,2,3,4 laps around the stadium and then the walk home! OH...and I found the most yummiest things of all!!! They are called Weight Watchers natural light string cheese...I eat the mozzarella ones...absolutely in love with them! AND...they are only 1point per stick if you are doing the weight watchers program! AND..you get 12 of them in a pack!!! Thank you Drill Sergent for introducing me to my new love...my poor hubby....anyway....for those of you counting calories instead of using a point system the cheese sticks only have 50 calories per stick! I think I could live off of these cheese sticks! The really odd thing is...I don't really like just eating cheese! Anyway...get some...try them...yummy! More tomorrow!

KcNorton

Sunday, June 13, 2010

mmm...

Actually walked a ways tonight...it still amazes me how relaxing it can be...if your not being followed by a ticked off teenager that is yelling at you! I like having someone walk with me...but I don't always want them there to talk to...sometimes I just wanna pop my earbuds in and listen to some music while I walk. It's just nice knowing someone is there with you...

KcNorton

Saturday, June 12, 2010

blah...

Didn't do too much tonight...in a really crappy mood.

Friday, June 11, 2010

UGH...

Today was not terrible, but it wasn't great either. We walked for about an hour...not really sure how far that adds up to, but it was a nice walk anyway.

KcNorton

Thursday, June 10, 2010

Drill sergent down....

OH NO....my son is sick! And I mean my 17 year old is literally acting as tho he is 2 years old...yes I know...men are babies when it comes to being sick...but...oh well...I am not feeling too great today either...guess it's a rest day!

KcNorton

Wednesday, June 9, 2010

My son my drill sergent....

So...today we walked down to the local football stadium (approx. 1/2 mile from my home) - up the bleachers (but since I am afraid of heights I won't go all the way) and due to me not going all the way - my son says I have to do it TWICE! So 22 steps up and down twice....and then one lap around the track and then the walk home....everyday a little more...however I am already starting to notice my stomach is shrinking! YAY!

KcNorton

Tuesday, June 8, 2010

About the pic...

I hate the pic...but everyone needs to see it to understand...that is me weighing 276 pounds. Ain't it purty! That was said sarcastically...

The journey begins...

Ok...so I had this idea to start blogging about my weight loss journey...I am not really sure why, maybe just to keep myself from slipping and stopping...like that would happen with my 17 year old around...lol. Anyway, I used to weigh about 130 pounds and I stand 5'6" tall....not bad! Then at the age of 14 I got pregnant...gained to 161 pounds...had the baby...it's a boy...hint hint...the 17 year old mentioned earlier lol....yay...anyway lost all the weight - no biggie. Skip ahead I am 17 years old, married - not the ideal marriage...lost weight and looked skinnier then the olsen twins on crack ( no offense - not saying they are on crack - just a visualisation tool there). I weighed probably around 110 pounds soaking wet, fully dressed, with combat boots on. We are talking about needing to jump around in the shower just to get wet skinny...eating disorder...bad marriage...and HEY....I got pregnant again...probably the only thing that saved my life then. However, I had so many complications in the pregnancy I wound up on bedrest from like my 1st trimester until giving birth...yeah...it was great...I wound up weighing 180 pounds by the time I gave birth to baby boy number 2...who by the way is now 14 years old! Then I lost down to 150 pounds....hurt my back at work...the doctor thought it was the muscles so he pops me with trigger point injections (for those of you who have no clue what this is..it's pure steriods injected straight into your muscles)...I went from 150 pounds to 220 in literally 1 week! All the doctor can say is OOPS...and thus begins my hell! After this I got pregnant one more time with baby boy number 3, but hey guess what...due to the back injury (which, by the way, wasn't the muscle) I am limited in exercise! I have a herniated disc with a lesion in it at T9-T10. The thecal sac has ruptured in towards my spinal cord and has calcified and rests on the left side of my spinal cord. I didn't like the way the pills that the doctors put me on made me feel so I pulled myself off the meds and now take Ibprofen and Tylenol OTC for pain as needed. Anyway...back to the other stuff...due to the back injury, the steriods, the lack of exercise, the depression that is a result of the afore mentioned things, the food used to comfort the depression of the afore mentioned things....I got to be where I was 3 weeks ago...sitting at 276 pounds, being diagnosed with high cholesterol, being told I am at a very high risk of having a heart attack, and having other health issues...I AM 32 YEARS OLD! My parents beg me to lose weight....and yeah...I am scared, But in the last 3 weeks...I have lost 16 pounds! My 17 year old walks with me and pushes me to go further and do more...his inspiration...Bob from the biggest loser...although he likes to threaten me with calling Jillian...she is fun to watch on TV...I really wouldn't want her in my face though! She's one tough cookie! Ok...bad choice of word on a weight loss blog....so umm....replace cookie with Woman! So...I will attempt to keep this up.

KcNorton